Aftertaste of Memories. Illustration by Charles Owen (blvninjv) / THE REPUBLIC.
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A Moving Reflection on Love, Loss and Childhood
Aftertaste of Memories. Illustration by Charles Owen (blvninjv) / THE REPUBLIC.
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A Moving Reflection on Love, Loss and Childhood
To look through the lens of memory is like watching people from a distance; sometimes two things may merge to become one. One event may merge into another, and so we remember it as a single occurrence. As we age, we filter out, and sometimes even fabricate, memories. Through the lens of memory, we look at the lives we have led. We ponder and ascertain when and how something became what it is. Childhood is the foundation of who we become and the way we remember it largely shapes what we become. Every trait we display in adulthood has its roots in childhood. Through memory, we look back on our childhood, reminisce, and discover the things that shape us. This is the foundation upon which Michael Chièdoziém Chúkwúderà has built his poignant debut novel.
THE PROTAGONIST
In Loss is an Aftertaste of Memories we meet our narrator, Nọsike, who is living ahead of his time. We tread the murky waters of childhood and adolescence, sibling relationship, hopes and dreams, loss, and most importantly, love. Set in Benin City, in Edo State, Nọsike fondly remembers the early days of his childhood and beyond. We learn lessons alongside Nọsike as he shares how he views events that have shaped him, now through the lens of memory. Accompanied by startlingly vivid imagery, Chúkwúderà paints a beautiful portrait of a boy’s journey from childhood to adolescence. Nọsike recalls his kindergarten years and romanticizes being the child who consoled others, rather than being the consoled. This tendency to be a protector rather than the protected perhaps stems from Nọsike being the firstborn son, a trait that manifests in his relationship with Adaọra, his immediate younger sibling.
Nọsike begins experiencing pain in his left foot, the emotional turmoil is heavy. He wants ‘to die’ and it seems as though he is ‘having headache inside my leg.’ The pain of watching a child go through this weigh even heavier on his father’s shoulders. Here, Nọsike recollects his father’s pain: ‘I still remember vividly the tone in which he prayed, and I am convinced that if pain was a palpable thing, he would have picked it up from my foot and dropped it on his.’ But just after Nọsike gets treated, during the time that should be spent recuperating, he self-sabotages. When his sister attempts to protect him from himself, he feels indignant, ‘…like I wasn’t big enough to make decisions for myself.’ To affirm himself, he chases his sister, ‘perhaps, to shut her up with a slap.’ And so, we waddle through this complicated sibling relationship. In sharp contrast, Nọsike has beautiful rapport with his younger brother, Obi. They seem to have an understanding and never quarrel, referring to each other as ‘guy’.
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In Nọsike’s relationship with Adaora, one of the most important narratives in the book, we see how seemingly insignificant remarks can accumulate to shape our opinions of each other and the lens through which we view one another. While it could be argued that Nosike’s mother was relegated to the background until her grief is dealt with, she is more than just a tool to move the plot forward. She shows up when Nọsike’s father badgers him with questions, constantly serving as the voice of reason. When Nọsike grows quiet and withdrawn while dealing with the complex emotions that followed his near-death experience, she says, ‘I haven’t seen him like this before. I know the child I gave birth to.’ In another situation, when Nọsike is caught hiding a result he deems unworthy of him, she shows up during an interrogation by his father, ‘Nna, just leave him to go and sleep, tomorrow morning we can continue questioning him.’
Chúkwúderà paints an accurate picture of mothers being left to wander in oblivion, their presence almost lacking in the day-to-day life of their children. He shows us how mothers show up at monumental stages, leaving lasting impressions. She prepares him for each first day of school, almost like a tradition. Nọsike feels like he’s in KG 2 over again.
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THE APPROACH TO CHARACTERIZATION AND STYLE
Reminiscent of Kambili, the heroine in Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie’s transcendent debut, Purple Hibiscus, Nọsike is full of quiet intelligence and wisdom. He falls and drowns in love with the ‘beautiful, fair girl,’ with a ‘brisk and delicate walking style.’ He is ‘doused by the euphoria of love.’ Chúkwúderà poetically paints a sweeping, dreamlike picture in his portrayal of young love. His writing is delicate and careful, yet firm. Like a lover’s touch, it opens itself up to you. While the novel lacks tension, Chúkwúderà’s measured prose and Nọsike’s mind, bursting with wisdom and grace, sustains interest. Chúkwúderà takes risks that pay off. He artfully merges the narrator’s voice and the authorial. Consider this passage on religion:
I pondered on how it was that the predestination of God’s death on the cross to redeem his children from their own mistakes was also dependent on these mistakes and weak will…It also troubled me how one soul had to be damned for God to die and save the world.
Not since Imbolo Mbue’s astonishing debut, Behold the Dreamers, have I read a novel that evokes such complex feelings and emotions the way Loss is an Aftertaste of Memories does (and Chúkwúderà’s novel is not about an immigrant couple). Sometimes we root so hard for Nọsike. Other times, he is such a pain, you wish the pacing was faster.
This novel triumphs for most part—the dialogue is breathtakingly original, the hand is sure, and children are children. Characters also leap off the page and become a tangible thing; the story is not at all contrived or generic. However, Chúkwúderà’s constant description of minor characters as ‘plump’ begs for a little imagination. Additionally, considering the author’s penchant for striking, brilliant descriptions, he could have given more attention to detailing what Nọsike’s parents do. We know they have a shop and that they sell in the market, but what exactly do they sell? What does their shop look like? We know they have a home in the village, but what type of house is it? What does the arrangement look like?
In addition, I believe this book would have benefitted from more rigorous editing. In the section of the novel where they spend Christmas in their ancestral homeland, children are said to put money together to purchase ‘beer’. I want to believe this was an oversight during the editorial process (a reprint should correct this). If it wasn’t an editorial mistake, why was the issue of children purchasing alcohol not addressed?
Loss is an Aftertaste of Memories ends on a hopeful note. We see the potential start of a friendship when Nọsike and Adaọra bond after their mother’s death and Nọsike’s accident. The meaning of Nọsike’s name, ‘stay strong’, takes on even more profound significance as well.
Ultimately, this novel will further highlight the rise of younger Nigerian novelists. The focus has shifted from colonialism and post-colonial military regimes. We are now in an era of primordial civilian governments. African literature is thriving! Overall, I believe Chúkwúderà’s first offering is a delectable and deeply human novel—one of the best debut novels of our time⎈
LOSS IS AN AFTERTASTE OF MEMORIES
MICHAEL CHIÈDOZIÉM CHÚKWÚDERA
283 PP. MMỤTA BOOKS, JUNE 2024
NIGERIA
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